“Vaisnava Humbleness”

Prabhupada: Amara jivana sada pape rata nahiko punyera lesa. This is a song sung by Bhaktivinoda Thakura in Vaisnava humbleness. A Vaisnava is always meek and humble. So he is describing the life of the people in general, taking himself to be one of them. People in general are like the discription given here. He says that, “My life is always engaged in sinful activities, and if you try to find out, you will not find even a trace of pious activities—only full of sinful activities.” And; parere udvega, diyachi ye koto, diyachi jivere klesa: “I am always inclined to give trouble to other living entities. That is my business. I want to see that others are suffering, and I enjoy.” Nija sukha lagi, pape nahi dori: “For my personal sense gratification, I do not care for any sinful activity.” That means, I accept any kind of sinful activity if it is satisfactory to my senses. Daya-hina svartha-paro: “I am not at all merciful, and only I see to my personal interest.” Para-sukhe duhkhi: “As such, when others are suffering I become very happy, and always talking lies. Sada mithya-bhasi: Even for ordinary things I am accustomed to speak lies.”

Para-duhkha sukha-karo: “And if one is suffering, that is very pleasant to me.” Asesa kamana, hrdi majhe mora: “I have got lots of desires within my heart, and I am always angry and falsely prestigious, always puffed up with false pride.” Mada-matta sada visaye mohita: “I am captivated in subject matters of sense gratification, and almost I am crazy.” Himsa-garva vibhusana: “My ornaments are enviousness and false pride.” Nidralasya hata, sukarye virata: “I am subdued or I am conquered by sleep and laziness, and I am always averse to pious activities.” Akarye udyogi ami: “And I am very enthusiastic to perform impious activities.” Pratistha lagiya sathya-acarana: “I always cheat others for my prestige.” Lobha-hata sada kami: “I am conquered by greediness and always lusty.”

E heno durjana saj-jana-varjita: “So, I am so fallen, and I have no association of devotees.” Aparadhi nirantara: “I am an offender always.” Subha-karya-sunya: “In my life there is not a bit of auspicious activity”; sadanartha manah: “and my mind is always attracted by something mischievous.” Nana duhkhe jara jara: “Therefore, at the fag end of my life I am almost invalid by all such sufferings.” Bardhakye ekhona upaya-vihina: “Now in my old age I have no alternative”; ta’te dina akincana: “therefore by force I have now become very humble and meek.” Bhakativinoda prabhura carane, kore duhkha nivedana: “Thus Bhaktivinoda Thakura is offering his statement of life’s activities at the Lotus Feet of the Supreme Lord.”