* Special note: my last article was appreciated by many devotees, but it also angered some devotees. Please, thoughts are real things. I’m going through some physical challenges and don’t need angry thoughts directed towards me. I suggest that if something I write makes you angry, direct that anger towards yourself. Thank you for your consideration. Hare Krsna.
My Tribute to Srila Prabhupada
Dear Srila Prabhupada,
Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to your lotus feet!
This morning I was listening to you give a class in 1966 in New York in which you insisted to the audience that “Krsna is so friendly”. You said those words with so much devotion and eagerness to help those souls listening to you really understand that Krsna is our best friend. It was synchronistically wonderful for me to hear those words because I have been going through a physical crisis in which I wasn’t/am not sure if my body would survive. While I thought I had developed a consciousness in which I thought I was above the fear frequency, as I was witnessing my body hemorrhaging, I succumbed to fear. When I was finally able to hear you chanting, it was like my best friend and savior war right there with me and in an instant I went from terror to happy. You were saying the Maha Mantra with such love and faith that I could see that even if I lost consciousness and it was my time to leave my body, everything would be just perfect.
I have a large breast tumor as a result of my daughter rejecting me. Yes, at one level I could blame the monster who tortured her, giving her the excuse to reject Krsna. Or I could blame myself for leaving her at the daycare where she was tortured. But I’ve realized that everything that happens to me is of my own making. This health crisis I’m experiencing is perfect for me. At the highest level, my daughter’s narrative is perfect for her to eventually want to remember Krsna, too, just as my narrative is perfect, mistakes and all.
The amazing thing that I’ve learned about health is summed up by your simple statement: “Krsna is so friendly!” While the demons have promoted a theory that the world, germs, viruses and fungi are all out there to attack our bodies, the truth is that everything in Nature is friendly. TB bacteria naturally exist in everyone’s body and the body has special programs that help protect the body from harm. At a signal from the special programming in the body, the TB bacteria will proliferate and use their little scouring pads to actually eat up a tumor when it has served its purpose. Similarly colds are a program run by the body to expel harmful bacteria and protect the body from pneumonia. Everything in Nature has a benevolent purpose. What is malevolent is the consciousness of souls who have chosen to ignore Krsna. I’m one of those with a covering that is partially malevolent and I thank you so much for the process to help me rid myself of the embarrassing thought streams from my conditioning and material desires.
You have told us that as we chant, Krsna gradually reveals Himself. I’ve started to see that Krsna is smiles: my Deity, Giriraja has a wonderful smile and I can see it reflected in other people’s smiles. When I see people or animals stretch after waking up, I see a reflection of how Krsna seems when I wake Him up in the morning. I’m beginning to hear your flute in the sounds of the birds in the Spring. I know that the mercy to realize these things flows from your lotus feet. Thank you so much!
While I don’t feel worthy to receive your mercy, I’ve come to understand that what you are offering is causeless mercy and I’d be a fool not to accept it. I wasn’t formerly able to accept what you were offering because I wasn’t following strictly. I was eating food prepared by karmis and watching Hollywood garbage (and drinking coffee). I now know that the rules and regulations that you gave us were so that we can feel worthy enough to receive your mercy. It is the price for the priceless knowledge you gave us. Your mercy is always there. It was just that I had to feel qualified to grasp it. Thank you so much!
We are now going through a historical time in which the demons have somehow (probably through TV, Hollywood and propaganda) put most people, including many devotees under a type of hypnosis. Although most people I know don’t know anyone (at least anyone young) who has died of this so-called virus, people are somehow believing that the government cares about them. Actually the demons running the government think that the world is over-populated and it looks like they’re trying to do something about it. I recently heard a class in which you thoroughly debunk the idea that the world is over-populated, and I also know that no one can kill someone’s body without Krsna’s sanction. It is looking like Krsna is arranging for a large number of souls inhabiting human bodies to succumb to a coming plague and/or disaster/war. As a result, the survivors will be in a perfect state of consciousness to be open to the message of Bhagavad-Gita. We are going to have an awesome opportunity to institute varnashrama.
Ten years ago, Krsna led us to this perfect situation in a beautiful remote valley surrounded by mountains. The rainfall is plentiful and it is easy to grow food. Cows like the lush pastures and fruit trees. This is an ideal place to implement the second half of your mission. We have the necessary material resources, but we need your mercy to have the intelligence to do what needs to be done. I’m happy that my desire to figure out how to do this difficult thing is in line with your desires to have it done, so it should be fun!
Thank you so much Srila Prabhupada, for still being here and for helping me so much. Please let me be able to accept your causeless mercy and be able to serve you in whatever way you want.
Your Servant,
Anuttama devi dasi
anuttamadd@gmail.com
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